communication

syg,
i know its not normal,and that its weird..but..i really think its really hard to communicate,with you,us.
when i need u,thats when i need to speak to you,talk to you,pour out my feelings,which is important in a relationship..and whenever i need that,you're always not there.
for example,now.you're sleeping.and only at night,at night, like now,like 3am,do i feel like talking.coz im a night person,i like to talk at night.when there are no distractions,when were alone,when nobody can take you away from me,that's when i need and want to talk to you.
i love u syg,so so so much,more than anything,more than anyone,you're my world,my life,my heart.
but it just crushes me to know that we can't communicate.when i need you,you're not there.when u need me,no..u never need me.you just keep it all bottled inside.and that maked me REALLY,REALLY sad.as if you don't think im layak enough for you to talk to.to pour your feelings to.
syg,pls,pls,pls don't pendam everything.pls tell me.i wanna know,i wanna know you.i wanna know the person i truly fell in love with,don't push me away from you syg..pls =(